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October 05, 2005
soda jerk
I saw Sam again in the line at the cafeteria this afternoon, we were both filling our soda cups at the same time. Sam likes diet coke, I like mountain dew. We stood there together while our cups filled up... neither of us takes much ice, we both like the soda more than the ice.
I looked over at him and I said, "You know, Sam, I've been thinking about what you said, about estrangement."
He said, "Yeah, and?"
I said, "It's a one-way street, estrangement. If there's a space between you and somebody else, the place to look for the reason is within yourself, not between the two of you.. it's in you, not in the relationship."
He looked at me, thinking. "That's not an easy thing to hear," he said.
"It's a fuck of a bitch to say, Sam, a fuck of a bitch."
Our sodas were full, simultaneously.
"I'm gonna have to think about that, man."
"yeah," I said, "me too."
posted by matthew at 11:41 PM
Your post reminds me of one of my favorite songs by the Dave Matthews Band, "The Space Between." And it also takes me back to a time when I was estranged from just about everyone.
It was one of the worst and best times of my life.
Strange.
posted by: Di on October 6, 2005 05:59 PM